Wednesday, April 30, 2003

Some people think the glass is half full, other's think it's half empty, I just think who the hell's been drinking my Pepsi?!?!

"I tried to convince myself that I could be my own angel. It didn't work. That's when I met you."
"I'm just talking about what you're thinking, but not saying."

"I keep falling. And I wonder when I'm finally going to hit the ground."

"Reality continues to ruin my life" ~Calvin

"If it amounts to anything at all.. i was drunk when i agreed to this."

"A gun is used to kill people but a pen is used to bring people to life"

Insanity...Or Tradgic Genius?

...I abuse the ellipsis...

"I find answers from music all the time,
Or because I most identify with music as a way of expressing myself.
I just find most of my answers there.
Other people find it through painting, or art, or teaching, or murder..."
-Jeff Buckley


Tuesday, April 29, 2003

"Too much talking these days. Talk talk talk. This country would get along much better if poeple learned how to suffer in silence."
- Mr. Wednesday, American Gods by Neil Gaiman.

"In some cultures what I do is considered normal."

I swear to drunk I'm not God...

I'd rather paint the walls in blood then
stand here and watch you cry.

"An answer based on an ethical viewpoint. An idealistic answer. An biological answer. There are many things that can serve as the answer. But none of them are complete answers. What do you think?"

Where are we going and why am I in a handbasket?

I'm going to go ahead and go boldly,
Because a little bird told me
That jumping is easy, that falling is fun
Up until you hit the sidewalk, shivering and stunned.

"Pain, happiness, courage, life and lots and lots of alchohol are the essences of Poetry..."

"Dude I didn't know it was Haloween until I saw the stoplight walk past me!"

It's like crack, it will addict you with no hope of ever ending the torture...

Ever wonder about those people who spend $2.00 a piece on those little bottles of Evian water? Try spelling Evian backwards..

Some people live for rules.
I live for exceptions.

"You think games make people violent? Shut up! I'll stab you!"

The only difference between me and a madman is that I'm not mad. -- Salvador Dali

Procrastination is like masturbation, it feels great until you realize you're fucking yourself.

If we always looked on the bright side we'd eventually go blind.

But if youve got enough naivete
and you've got conviction
then the answers perfect for you.

Life is too short to think about illusions, and too long for not having them.

"...Ain't it funny, things you think at times like these..."

If we were alone in space, it would be a terrrible waste of space.

"You're so clueless, its borderline aggressive."

You don't need eyes to see, you need vision.

Today, nearly every one in the western world can read, but only a few people can think...

I don't know what weapons will be used in WW3, but i know sticks and stones will be used in WW4.--Einstein

The world is not only stranger than you suppose, it's stranger than you can suppose!

Hope is the courage to hear the music of the future. Faith is the ability to dance to it in the present.

Nothing like a light fixture to the groin to cut short an evenings fun.

"Wow, doesn't that just make you want to buy a pink balloon and shoot the president?"

"One of Gods own prototypes, a high powered mutant of some kind, never even considered for mass production. Too weird to live to rare to die."--H.S. Thompson

"Don't take life seriously because you can't come out of it alive."
-Warren Miller

Life is like a box of chocolates, you have to dig through it and cut them open so you don't get the nasty ones.

"The quieter you become, the more you can hear." -Richard Alpert

"With a sigh and a step forward,
I now exist only in memory."

Go on, pull the trigger, it'll be the last time I promise.

"I'd blow this whole world to pieces to not be alone."

"We are many wicks sharing a common tallow; we feed the skies with the ashes of our prey."

"Water is life. Or perhaps it is just something to wash it down with."

You've created something in your mind...a substitute reality, because you don't want to deal with anything.


Saturday, April 26, 2003

The Day I Said Good-Bye
Ran out again
Trees burning down
Looking at you I start to frown
Imagine again
Imagine the stars
Imagine yourself going far
Sleep again
Don't dream of me
Dream the way you set it free
Drowned again
So black I can't see
Remember the time you told me to leave
Dropped it again
Slipped off my hands
Broke on the floor before it lands
Listening again
Watching me die
Watching you lie I start to cry
Believing again
Seeing you glow
Looking at you, you begin to glow
Stopping again
My heart starting to bleed
Blacking out I just can't breathe
circa the deviantART account lordofspoons


One for sorrow, two for joy,
Three for girl, four for boy,
Five for silver, six for gold,
Seven, for a secret that's never been told...

"In the End, we will remember not the words of our enemies, but the silence of our friends."


Thursday, April 24, 2003

"If it's not broken... don't fix it."

"I'm losing my mind and I don't think you could save me this time."

You can't fight with that wound!

I'm hoping I can buy her love.

"... What is moral is what you feel good after and what is immoral is what you feel bad after ..." -Ernest Hemingway,

"The meek shall inherit the Earth..... If thats alright with everybody else?"

"Even if you are on the right track, you'll still get run over if you just sit there. " - Wolfgang van Goeth

If people were superior to animals, they'd take better care of the world...

And the world is like a shiny diamond
The way it glitters if you polish it right
And if the light should turn and leave you blinded
Take the dream and give it one more try

"I know he's not MY cousin... but can I please slap some sense into him?"
"He's 28, he's too old to have sense slapped into him."
"Fine then, can I try knocking some stupid out of him?!"

How can we save our souls when we can't even prove they exist?


The Last Race
the warmth of dusk
fading faster then i
could ever hope to
is the last touch
i ever feel.

the creep of mud
flowing through my veins
tasting better then i
could ever imagine,

the first relief i ever feel
the last pain i ever knew

no one
will ever know..

the last race
i never won.
circa the deviantART account reekoknowsbest


Wednesday, April 23, 2003

As a child, you walk in the plains, for you are simple and free; as an adult, you walk in the city, for you are trapped in conformity and repetition

"Deeper deeper deeper deeper!
The Needles under the eyes are especially painful, aren't they?
You said you would love only me, but you love your son too, don't you? You lied! They all lie..."

Inside of myself daylight is almost waking up, slow and wondering how sometimes it isn't always good here.

"In our ignorance, we think
only the strong survive,
but is it those who are strong in body
or strong in heart and mind?"

Prophets see much when it comes to others, but little when it concerns themselves.

Do you hear the cries upon the wind? I hold them dearly. So do not judge me savior when you see me in the night. For I come not to free you, but to make you mine.

"It's nothing anybody said, it's what I can't do."

In the words of Tsuzuki Asato: "I have no money."

This is where I say I've had enough, no one should ever feel the way that I feel now.*

"When the power of love overcomes the love of power the world will know peace."
-Jimi Hendrix

Ye can't go wrong
with me cucumber song.
Cucumbers, cucumbers,
they make me strong!

They're the best ripe an' cold
long before they gets old.
They're so good, no one could
let them grow mold.

Drace, why are you sleeping in a graveyard?
Because I like the company.

Artists starve. But I bet you didn't know that by viewing their galleries, you can help them eat. IT'S TRUE. Artists starve mostly because they are too depressed due to lack of attention to eat!

You can lead a man to reason, but you can't make him think.

What the caterpillar calls the end of the world, the master calls a butterfly.

"There's a Difference between a psychopath and a sociopath ... a psychopath can't help it ... a sociopath doesn't give a damn..."


Tuesday, April 22, 2003

If you cannot be a poet, be a poem.

One day I hope you will stab me hard enough that I will stop getting back up.

"If there's anything more important than my ego around, I want it caught and shot now."

The secret to creativity is knowing when to hide your sources - Albert Einstein

"This is what I live for. This is the purpose of living for those who have no life."

-Watching life as it is from a torn glass wall with a hole, I serve a retribution.
-While i sit down and know that i'm an idiot of life's intellect, i serve a retribution.
-And when someone is grabbed of confusion of what i am, I serve a retribution.

There are a million things in the world to be happy about... pick one.

Mistakes in life can be covered by whiteout and hidden...but it will always leave a crinkle in the paper...

Due to concerns about the economy, the light at the end of the tunnel has been shut off. But the problem is that nobody cares and the economy gets worse and worse until capitalim takes over the world and the tunnel's batteries never get changed.

Poison to my rotten core
Too fucked up to care anymore.

"I don't try to be different, but it's difficult to fit in"

Like cheap underwear, the mind, once stretched, never reverts to its original shape.

Dreams are more fragile and fleeting than a glass rose, so then why are we destined to dream?

If I had wanted to live in your dreams, I would have dreamt them myself.

"What I have left behind I count now no loss; needless baggage on the road it has proved. Let those that cursed my name, curse me still, and whine their way back to the cages of the Valar! Let the ships burn!"

"Writing does not cause misery,
it is born of misery." - Montaigne

The difference between 'involvement' and 'commitment' is like an
eggs-and-ham breakfast: the chicken was 'involved' - the pig was

"Everytime something good happens to me you say its some type of madness, or I'm drunk or i ate too much candy"

+when the day ball is in the blue thing, bread is witches+

Whisper dreams to me
as i cradle you sleeping
vanishing nightmares.

100,000 lemmings can't be wrong.

Once I kissed the eyes of death,
and they cried tears of life

Hope is the courage to hear the music of the future. Faith is the ability to dance to it in the present.

"If you're facing a cow and then you turn around, does the cow still exist?"

Someone once told me "Angels don't cry."
I must not be an angel.

"I don't think theres anything worse then being ordinary."

Misery loves company. Wanna hang out?

"All it takes is one bad day to reduce the sanest man alive to lunacy. That's how far the world is from where I stand. Just one bad day." -The Killing Joke, Alan Moore

"Drink coffee; do stupid things faster with more energy."

"We call it 'the real world.' If it's real, than what are we, fake?" - Frank Miller

Is anyone else disturbed
By the way
That tomorrow never seems to come?
It's always

Gemini: (May 21—June 21)
A bump in life's road causes you to lose control of life's car and spin out of control, careening off life's cliff and into life's rocky valley below, where the car bursts

On the eigth day, god created pants
And damn they were nice.

"There came a time when the risk to remain tight in a bud
was more painful than the risk it took to blossom."

Fighting for peace is like fucking for virginity.

"I was talking about policing, not alcohol. There's lots of people will help you with the alcohol business, but there's no one out there arranging little meetings where you can stand up and say, "My name's Sam and I'm a really suspicious bastard."

Sticks and stones may break my bones and so would an 80lb carrot.

Fear my fluffy blue justice!


-awaiting beyond your dream,
-silent is the wind,
-ever graceful is the night.
-sleep beyond your worries,
-grow with the light of day.
-worry when everthing else is in grief,
-be glad the day dawns without a bleak heart.
-tears beyond the pain,
-close the door that holds the dawn,
-light a candle to the shadow,
-and let the soft edges envelope you...
circa the deviantART account myurton


I celebrated Easter this year drinking and gambling with my mother in Atlantic City. We sat at 25-cent slot machines, me with a tequila sunrise, her with a 7 and 7 – forever The Grown Up Drink to me. We sipped through tiny red straws and tipped the cocktail waitresses with quarters fished out of plastic buckets. I felt like a little girl getting to play with the grownups every time she’d slip money into my machine and tell me to bet whole dollar on just one spin. We laughed at the ridiculousness of it and ate Zitner’s butter cream eggs.
From the blog Hundredwords


Monday, April 21, 2003

Don't make me what I was,
But don't love what I am.

All the castles
melt in the sea

In this world of cheese-wiz, I have found no cheese.

Trust me. I don't suffer from insanity, I enjoy every minute of it.

Bid my blood to run,
Before I come undone
Save me from the nothing I've become.

The road to peace is often blocked by war, but it's best to keep searching for a detour.

Why does life have to be like this?

We, the UNWILLING, are doing the impossible for the ungrateful.

Love never dies, love never fails, love never ever fades away...

Ebay is the Black Market of the 21 century.

The bouncer at an exhibition recently said into his mouthpiece, "Someone's just put a book in the fridge. Is this art or should we take it out?"

"With these dreams running through my head, it's hard to see what is reality and what is fantasy. Awakening from these dreams, am I in the real world or just another addition to this never ending dream"

We have money for the war, but we can't feed the poor. What the HELL??

"Humans are the only species capable of hating its own kind"

Life sucks! God gives me a swift PAINFUL kick in my ass everytime I blink.

I have one word. eh. it is my word.
I have one purr. moew. it is my purr.
I have one style. calm. it is my style.
I have one mind. food. it is my mind.
I have one hope. peace. it is my hope.
I have one goal. it is to be myself.

Adventure...Excitement.... A jedi craves not these things....

Don't paint me as I am.
Paint me as an ancient.
Paint me as my mind sees, as history's patient eruption.
Paint me with them, these figments.
The proposterous players of lost arts.

"We bound by pride and strength. We without hope, without fear..without regret...."

Stand Tall and Shake the Heavens.

Revenge is not all it should be.

If I told you this was killing me, would you, would you stop?

"I know you're supporting me...
I'll be losing you before long..."

If I were a woman, and you were a man, and we were both straight, I would insist on having your babies. -paulscha

The truth isn't that politicians are incredibly stupid, the truth is that everyone is really stupid, but, we get to SEE how stupid politicians are. It's the same with celebrities. But, no matter how many drugs they take, we still adore them.

God is a comedian, playing to an audience too afraid to laugh. -Voltaire

I'm not a complete idiot for parts of me are missing.

"I have the blood sugar level of a hummingbird and the attention span of a kitten."

Technological progress is like an axe in the hands of a pathological criminal. -Albert Einstein

If you were a TRUE goth, you'd be dead by now.

Try to be the best at what you are, even if what you are is no good.

Their heads are soft! They'll bounce! They survived the cribs; let the little one eyed bastards play.

Sometimes learning to live is the hardest lesson of all...

Say goodbye to gravity and say goodbye to death; hello to eternity and live for every breath.

I dont care if your living is taboo. A whisper: believe in you...

" And as imagination bodies forth the form of things unkown the poets pen turns them to shape and gives to airy nothing a local habitation and a name"

:: Daughter of the midnightsun, mount your sledge, run and run, breath the freedom, air so pure, body strong and heart demure ::

The Monkey flies at a quarter past 10!
The Broccoli stalks at midnight
The Monkey's banana

Don't get mad! Get Leon.

And all is one.

"If you want a picture of the future, imagine a boot stamping on a human face---forever."
-George Orwell

Tradition is just an excuse for being to weak to find a better way.

"Before you crticize someone, walk a mile in his shoes. That way, if he gets angry, he'll be a mile away----and barefoot."

Happy Person: Optimists live longer. That's why I'm an optimist.
Me: I'd hate to break it to you, but you're going to die anyway, and when you die it doesn't matter how long you lived, YOU'RE DEAD!

I find a certain beauty in what sickens you....

"Governement is another way of saying better than you."

"Forget the freak, you're just nature."

"I'd rather laugh with the sinners than cry with the saints..."

I do not regret the things I have done, but those I did not do.

The chicken with it's head cut off can only know where it has been.
It cannot see where it is going.
Don't be that chicken.

"If all is fair in love and war...then why am I fighting alone?"

"I hope some animal never bores a hole in my head and lays its eggs in my brain, because later you might think youre having a good idea but its just eggs hatching." - Jack Handey

If you can't fix it, duct it!

I'll be waiting.. for you.. so.. If you come here, you'll find me. I promise.

One man's word is no man's word; we should quietly hear both sides.~Goethe~

Brains dont cause stupid behaviour,
brains make stupid behaviour possible.

"Wishfull thinking, become wishfull thoughts and wishfull thoughts become, wishfull dreams.."

"Forgiveness is the scent a violet leaves on a heal that has crushed it."

What if I stumble?
What if I fall?
What if I lose my step,
and I make fools of us all?


Sunday, April 20, 2003

Always live life to the fullest! Think of all those people on the Titanic that passed on chocolate dessert...

"This building's totally burning down, and my heart is slowly drying up."

"Our generation has had no Great Depression, no Great War.
Our war is spiritual. Our depression is our lives."

"Another thing is no matter how much you think you love somebody, you'll step back when the pool of their blood edges up too close." - Invisible Monsters by Chuck Palahniuk

Relena: Get your perverted hands off him!
Duo: Heero, do you want me to get my perverted hands off you?
Heero: No, but if you could move that one down and to the right, that would be great.


Saturday, April 19, 2003

Recently I've heard people walking around claiming that they are god. . .You ask someone a question, "why is that?" They reply, "Because I'm god."

This got me to thinking. . . Why do these people harbour these absurd delusions of being god? The answer was simple enough to find. . .

I recalled many theories. The first being that god controls the destiny of man, an old solid christian belief. Then another theory crossed my mind. . . Man is in control of his own destiny, this is a younger, popular, and entirely valid theory. The idea that man is in control of his own destiny is a strong belief in the scientologist church. After these two theories and their roots processed in my mind. . . Another thought formed, I recalled a lecture I once attended with my sister and my mother, they had no where else to stick me, this lecture posed the theory that all religions are basically one and the same, they all come from the same place.

Adding it all up in my mind, I then formed the following theory of my own (disregard it entirely if you must, I can't stop you):

God controls the destiny of man, yet man (for the most part) is in control of his own destiny. . . Therefore it is safe to assume that god is man and man is god.

Loopoles in this theory:

-God is perfect, man is not. . .
-Exsistance itself

Sealing those loopholes. . . First. . .Man is the most perfect animal. . Because it is imperfect. We learn from our mistakes, some of us find beauty where others see none. . . It's a balance. . What some lack, other make up for, in abundance. Second, creation. . . We're here. . . Do we honestly need to know how we came to be randomly shat into exsistance? I think not. . .

Finally, exsistance on a whole. . . It's the longest most confusing chain reaction in the history of itself. Everything plays off of everything else. Because I do something here. . . Something good or bad will happen somewhere else or down the road. . . We create these problems, and the idea of god is just a scapegoat. A mer crutch for the imperfections we choose not to deal with.

The very imperfections which make us godly and more perfect.

"Even the Mona Lisa is falling apart"

circa the deviantART user wordsareuseless


As soon as you are born you start dying so you might as well have a good time.

Democracy does not work when a majority of people are idiots.

You'll never be what you try to be if you want to be it.

Life itself is neither good nor evil, but only a place for good and evil.

For those who have fought for it, freedom has a taste the protected will never know.

...look, i've never had a dream in my life, cuz a dream is what you want to do but still haven't pursued.
i knew what i wanted and did it til it was done, so i've been the dream that i wanted since day one...

If you always do what you always did - you'll always get what you always got.

”I don’t know that Atheists should be considered as citizens, nor should they be considered patriots.”
-George Bush

"Without music or an intriguing idea, colour becomes pallor, man becomes carcass, home becomes catacomb, and the dead are but for a moment motionless". -- Edgar Allan Poe

"The first casualty when war comes is the truth." —Sen. Hiram Johnson

"Those who make peaceful revolution impossible will make violent revolution inevitable." -JFK

"Even the Mona Lisa is falling apart"


Friday, April 04, 2003

Outside of a dog, a book is a man's best friend. Inside of a dog, it is too dark to read.

By the pricking of my thumbs,
something wicked this way comes....

Please god let me fall in love; I want to do disgusting things.

Love takes off masks that we fear we cannot live without and know we cannot live within. - James Baldwin

"All I want to do, is be more like me, and less like you..." - Linkin Park

"Dream as if you'll live Forever...
Live as if you die Today!"

Even now in heaven, angels carry savage weapons -Gabriel-

Death is smiling at us all, and all a man can do is smile back -Maximus-

Everything tastes of licorice -Hemmingway-

Some mornings it's just not worth chewing through the leather straps.

Hey! I didn't sign up for Goth Camp!

Life breaks everyone and afterward many are strong at the broken places. --Ernest Hemingway

And you breathe in
and you breathe out for it
ain't it so wierd
how it makes you a weapon

"And I find it kind of funny, I find it kind of sad. The dreams in which dying are the best I've ever had. I find it hard to tell you, I find it hard to take, when people are running circles, its a very very mad world."

Just keep in mind -- love destroys more than booze can make up.

"De tout ce qui est écrit, je n'aime que ce qu'on écrit avec son sang. Écris avec du sang, et tu apprendras que sang est esprit." - Nietzsche

Give me a place where I can be flying
Show me a home where I can be free...

Can I buy you a drink or would you just like the money?

"Love is the salute of the angels to the stars." - Victor Hugo

"I will not say: do not weep; for not all tears are an evil." - Tolkien

"Come back to me! For I was born in love with thee, so why should Fate stand in between?" - Cradle of Filth

"I know that a kiss is not the truth, but, last nights, our mouths meeting, it was all we ever wanted to know about the truth."

"blessed is the gift of depth and despair
when ignorance is bliss, so blindly i stare
scars for pain i've yet to bear
beckon the razor, the surface tears"

It's only after you've lost everything, that you're free to do anything.

"Anyone can die, have the courage to live."

"Thou shalt try not to commit murder, unless the other guy believes in a different invisible man in the sky than you do."
-George Carlin

Every passing minute, is a chance to turn it all around.

Sometimes, there are things which can't or aren't meant to be explained by words and reasoning, but are felt and understood just the same...

Still we are one, you and I
Realize, I did what you wanted me to
The lack of pure souls and the fading light
It's me you blame


Thursday, April 03, 2003

I wish I had a Kryptonite cross, because then you could keep both Dracula AND Superman away.

"Whatever floats your goat...."
"But my goat drowned!"
"Then that is bad."

"We've seen death before. Every time we sit down to eat there's a dead thing on our plate."

The Master Penguin, bringing your daily dose of free fish and sushi, while trying to avoid an encounter of a sea lion kind.

You know Earth is off kilter when
the world's best rapper is white,
the best golfer is black,
the tallest basketball player is Chinese,
and Germany doesn't want to go to war.

Night time stars bring daytime scars
I've always loved the dark.

For a sunrise or a sunset, you're manic or you’re depressed, Will you ever feel ok?

He who dies with the most toys is none the less still dead.