Saturday, June 21, 2003

"The mind that becomes soiled in youth can never again be washed clean. I know this by my own experience, and to this day I cherish an unappeased bitterness against the unfaithful guardians of my young life, who not only permitted but compelled me to read an unexpurgated Bible through before I was 15 years old. None can do that and ever draw a clean sweet breath again on this side of the grave. Ask that young lady - she will tell you so."

If parents are unable, unwilling, or unavailable to answer the questions that their children have, blaming the school system, Darwin, or Eminem for unacceptable behavior is like blaming the coffee table because the toast burned.


Where is Her Grave?
Do you remember why we're fighting?
Why we tear our selves apart in a civil war where the blood spilled can't be seen,
and the wounds will never heal?
Do you remember why we've isolated ourselves from the entire world just to get out point across?
I sure as fuck don't.
What I do remember is why we shouldn't be fighting,
why we should be moving forward into the future as one unified people,
everyone together,
why we should take our mistakes and the mistakes of others and learn from them,
rather than profit from them,
and why we should never forget.

September 11th brought about an almost sickeningly commercial response of patriotism and star-powered, four hour long ego-thons. Do you think that those same stars, who protest the war today, remember why we are fighting, and why we shouldn't be fighting? Both sides have completely lost sight of the very reason that we're fighting internally in the first place, and are instead bickering and killing without any hope of resolve.

We weren't fighting, at least originally, about oil and fighting the government because saying fuck off to authority is the trendy thing to do. Nay, we were fighting because when we saw those massive casualties and felt a part of ourselves go dead, we never wanted to see that happen to anyone ever again. Ever. But now that both sides both have lost sight of their original point of argument, this whole thing becomes pointless. But what isnt pointless is why the debate started in the first place, because without that we're accomplishing nothing, and blood spilled simply for the sake of it is in some ways worse than blood spilled for an ill reason, and that's why we should never forget.

Thanks for your time.

circa the deviantART account digitalalchemy


Friday, June 20, 2003

It's more of a soundbite, but it's interesting:

Have you ever actually seen marilyn manson speak off stage? He's fucking Ghandi compared to his critics. Witty, funny, insightful, somber, intellectual, and no I'm not kidding...


Just cause yer dark and depressed doesn't mean yer artistic, damnit!

Of all the things I've lost, I miss my pants the most.

I do better in French than English.

Love can bring light and joy
But love immoderate will destroy.

I am no artist
I am a dreamer
Who takes a pencil
And shows the world
What I see

You know it's a bad sign when I'm the voice of reason.

Somebody in this world loves me. Well, them and a whole lot of drunk guys.

Where do souls go?
Actually, I'm afraid to know.

"Here, you hold this end of the rope, and I'll hold the other end. We'll trip the dragon as he runs through the doorway!" (famous last words of RPG heroes)

Sure, it's funny. But it's nothing to write home about.

Die Lügen sind wie Schneebälle: je weiter man sie fortwälzt, desto größer werden sie.

The law has boundaries. I don't.

Doing art without feelings is like making love to a hamster...Very hard...

There is a difference between knowing the path and walking the path.

I wonder if people are trying to prove some kind of point by posting "I've seen this before" so many times. If you don't think it's funny, why the hell are you commenting/voting on it?

"The essence of being eventually be broken up by life, the inevitable price of fastening ones love upon others"-Orwell(On Ghandi)

The ripped images are just too used. Good words, old images = bleh.

Hi ho, hi ho, it's off to war we go. We'll kick some ass and kill for gas and corporate CEO's.

I've got an electric guitar,
I play my stupid songs,
I write these stupid words,
and I love every one

"Metal is dead, so I've heard, but not while I'm still above ground."

"To finish a work? To finish a picture? What nonsense! To finish it means to be through with it, to kill it, to rid it of its soul, to give it its final blow … the coup de grâce for the painter as well as for the picture."PICASSO

It's nice to be important but more important to be nice.

"I wish you made sense like a joke that no one gets. It's a life without regret; I want to feel that way forever and ever."

"The only real difference between suicide and martyrdom is press coverage." - Chuck Palahniuk

Why put off anything you can avoid all together?

I woke up in love this morning. ~Sleeping Beauty~


Thursday, June 12, 2003

Good guy, bad guy...I'm the guy with the gun.

How could your life be meaningless?
I mean, you can still be food for the vampires, right?

"Technical skill is mastery of complexity while creativity is mastery of simplicity."
- E. C. Zeeman

Star light, star bright
First star I see tonight.
I wish I may, I wish I might
Have this wish, I wish for tonight.

"What goes around comes back stronger"

In sorrows end, we can pretend, our shattered hearts, will truly mend.


Desire and Flight
I swear that I had left my window closed,
yet there she was, a darker patch of night:
too real for disbelief, all golden skin
and darkness, and the sound of beating wings
that I could never see; the stuff of myth.
The air was cold and steaming with her breath.

When she arrived, she stole my very breath
and kept it captive, window still unclosed.
That very moment, opening to myth,
I welcomed in this creature spun from night;
she wrapped me warmly with her hidden wings
and feathertips made furrows in my skin.

No stranger to the touch of skin on skin,
still, I was unprepared for mingled breath,
for promises of flight on vivid wings,
discovery of secrets undisclosed.
I didn't see, that first impassioned night,
that I began to change, embracing myth.

She told me what it was to be a myth,
to crave the kiss of sunlight on her skin
but need the sanctuary found by night.
Belief in dreams, in magic, gives her breath;
the disbelief of minds too tightly closed
is poison that can cripple gryphon wings.

She begged for me to join her, said that wings
would grow from barren shoulders, that a myth
might then be born. I feared the window, closed,
could bar me from returning to my skin;
and so I trembled, tearful, held my breath
and watched her slip away into the night.

Now I dream of gryphons every night,
of lovers finding freedom on the wing.
Despite my choice, I long to taste her breath,
the woman who once wakened me to myth,
and feel her feathers warm against my skin.
My window, should she come, is never closed.

My arms, once closed, are open now to myth;
I long to see her wings against the night--
I'd give my breath to leave this lonely skin.
circa the deviantART account tessuraea


Wednesday, June 11, 2003

Somehow YOU know exactly how it feels like to be a different gender, race, lifestyle or body. But I'm insensitive. All I know is how I feel. And I'm proud of it. But you'd understand that if you weren't insensitive about insensitivity.

The tears in her eyes,
Burn worse than my own.
To see the frown which stains her grace,
Is a pain I've never before known.
To see the absence of a smile on her face
Freezes my hopeless heart to stone.

"To love someone is to see them the way God intended them to be."

"I choose to speak, sing, scream. I am lips, hips, tits...I am the power of a woman. Strong like music, true like friendship. But without my friends, there would be no music...only spoken word."-Tairrie B.

What drives me is the fear of not doing it.

"We see things not as they are, but as we are."

You ever heard of the clam babies? They live in high way walls and eat children that go astray. They make houses out of vines and are good at break dancing. Be Afraid. Very very afraid.

He asked me, "What's punk?" I said, "Punk's not a look, it's a lifestyle." He looked confused, so I kicked over a trashcan and said, "That's punk." He then kicked a trashcan and said, "Is that punk?" I said, "No, that's trendy."

"Man, you go through life, you try to be nice to people, you struggle to resist the urge to punch 'em in the face, and for what?"

Fetch daddy's blue fright wig! I must be handsome when I unleash my rage.

If god can, then why cant I?

I'm not dead yet, I'm just moving kinda slow...

"Things are only complicated if you make them complicated. Otherwise, they're simple." -Andros Bliss

Life is under no obligation to give us what we expect. Thank you, Have a Day.

Any reviewer who expresses rage and loathing for a novel is preposterous. He or she is like a person who has put on full armor and attacked a hot fudge sundae.
Kurt Vonnegut (1922 - )

People take pictures of the happy moment in their lives. Someone looking through a photo album could conclude we had lead a joyous, leisurely existence. Free of tragedy. No one ever takes a picture of something they want to forget.

To rebel is to follow. To conform is to rebel.

The night will never end and you will never see the day again. Do you dare enter the darkness? Enter a new world? Enter into your new life?

Excuse me for not living up to your standards of fucking with standards.

Experience is the name everyone gives to their mistakes.

Bless your soul, if it is still intact
Your body is the gun, and your words are taxed.

"Beastiality is the result of poor eyesight"
"Are you some kind of military taco?"

"Something for nothing is better than nothing for something."

Dreams are alot like goldfish: eventually they either die, or get flushed before they're given the chance to live; along with all the other crap.

I don't know art, but I know what I like.

"I l o v e y o u. You're all I bloody think about. Dream about. You're in my gut... my throat...
I'm drowning in you --- I'm drowning in you"

Our greatest glory is not in never failing , but rising up every time we fail

I don't want to bleed anymore...

Oh my beautiful liar
Oh my precious whore
My disease, my infection
I am so impure

"I'm asking a serious question about the LOCATION and CURRENT STATUS of your pants!"

Nuke the Gay Wales for Jesus.

"When will people understand that words can cut as sharply as any blade, and that those cuts leave scars upon our souls?"

You know what really separates us from the animals?

Aim for the moon. If you miss it, at least you'll end up near the stars.
... and when all else fails, play dead.

"The best parental tool you can have is a lead pipe." -my brother Vinny

It works best this way.

I Went On a Soul Search Once, and found nothing...which is disturbing.

"It's Not That I Like You, I Just Like What You Do."

"I love to live, but sometimes I forget exactly why."

I sold my songs to have my fortune told, and it said "you should know that love will never die, but see how it kills you in the blink of an eye.

How should I know what I think
Before I heard what I said?

"It hurts sometimes more than we can bear. If we could live without passion maybe we'd know some kind of peace. But we would be hollow, empty rooms, shuttered and dank. Without passion we'd be truly dead"

A pill a day keeps the voices at bay!

"The silence of a falling star
Lights up a purple sky
And as I wonder where you are
I'm so lonesome I could cry..."

*I have died another day and thrown myself away, just to hear your voice again I'd bleed myself dry*

"... I do love it when you get cross. Sometimes I think about having you executed just to see the expression on your face."

"He who sacrifices freedom for security is neither free nor secure." ~ Ben Franklin

By becoming a Monster, One learns what It is to be Human...

There is Power in Style.
There is also Power in Atomic Weaponry.

At it's core, evil only exists to spread loss.

"I am ready to meet my Maker. Whether my Maker is prepared for the great ordeal of meeting me is another matter."
- Sir Winston Churchill (1874-1965)

Life is Art, because Art is Life.

I came here to kick ass and eat popcorn...and I'm all outta popcorn.

I want to sleep inside your dreams so I can kiss all your nightmares.

Isn't envy a sin?? ... well shit, I'm going to hell.

Life isn't about finding yourself, life is about creating yourself.

I wanna run away, and never say goodbye. Never wonder why.

Love, Faeriedust & other Atrocities,

"Crying in the distance
and calling out your name"

I'm like the wizard and you look lost like Dorothy.

Nothing is so difficult as not decieving oneself - Wittgenstein

Why are Christians wearing a cross around their necks ? Do you seriously think when Jesus comes back He'd like to see a friggin Cross?!

I'm just a sucker with no self esteem...

"Better to be pompous than to be an ass."
"Yes, but clothe yourself properly. Your pompous is showing"

Fuck the flag! I'll step on it anytime. But I will not (like so many do) step on (or over) my fellow countrymen.

Good Girls keep a dairy, Bad Girls don't have time for that.

Phobophobia- Fear of phobias
Hippopotomonstrosesquippedaliophobia- Fear of long words
Pantophobia- Fear of everything

"You didn't just cross the line! You crossed the line, ran a mile, turned around, stuck out your tongue, and did a booty dance!"

"If we knew what we were doing, it wouldn't be called research, would it?" ~Albert Einstein

Eternal life is a prison for the walking dead
Blow the wind, these thoughts are in my head
You make it so hard to breath, to think
Let my world of you dissolve away

"It is well that war is so terrible, or we should grow too fond of it." -Robert E. Lee

Courage and bravery are essentially plodding on and continuing to fight even when you know you cannot win.

Perhaps insanity is the cause.

Why the controvercy over these simple words when, in the end, they're just words?

"Beauty is what you may see, but every pretty object has its thorns."

Being a genus is like ice-skating on edge of a razor blade..

Always listen to experts. They'll tell you what can't be done, and why. Then do it.
-Robert Heinlein

"And writers are asked where we get our ideas from. In the beginning, I used to tell people the not very funny answers, the flip ones...these days I tell people the truth: 'I make them up,' I tell them. 'From my head.' "-Neil Gaiman

Tout le bien grandit dans les ténèbres
avant qu'il soit assez fort
d'entrer dans la lumière...

If hypocrites and cynics were flowers, then the whole world would be a garden...

"No sweeteners will cloak some forms of bitterness. If it tastes bitter, spit it out. That's what our earliest ancestors did." - The Bene Gesserit Coda.

"Between depriving a man of one hour from his life and depriving him of his life there exists only a difference of degree." - Frank Herbert

The more we know, the less we know we know.


Monday, June 09, 2003

Beauty of whatever kind, in its supreme development, invariably excites the sensitive soul to tears. - Edgar Allen Poe

and for a moment both of you believe
you can hear the city breathing
you are both tired, you want to be done
-Catherine Hunter

"yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, today is a gift"


Sunday, June 08, 2003

Purpose. Noun.
The object toward which one strives
Or for which something exists.
Look around.
Examine closely the lives
Of the people intermixed
In the backround.
Everyone contrives
Against you, everyone's sick.
Now, foreground.
What is it toward which you strive?
For what do you exist?
Truthfully now.
If when talking with yourself you lie,
Whom are you honest with?
circa the deviantART account slacksoft


Deaf Girl in the School Cafeteria
We're all strange here.

Being deaf just makes you feel more strange around the "normal people", the ones who can hear.

They always say to me, "But you're missing out on so much"...

And I say right back to them, "And you don't get it. Being deaf makes you pay attention more to the little details you'd never give a second thought to if you could hear."

There's no interruptions to my thoughts. absolutely.
It's total peace, pure.
circa the deviantART account sunlessmoon


Always dream even when awake.
It confuses the world and lets you defy gravity.

"I won't search beyond the sea from now. The shining thing is always here, it can be found within myself."

If I had one wish then It would be,
That no one would ever feel any way like me.
I tried to fix my life, But I seemed to fail.
I'll slit my wrists, my skin so pale. - ~Rebel-Punk

As I was walking up the stair
I met a man who wasn't there.
He wasn't there again today
I wish, I wish he'd go away.

"When you feel your life ain't worth living, you've got to stand up and
take a look around you then a look way up to the sky
And when your deepest thoughts are broken, keep on dreamin boy cause
when you stop dreamin its time to die"-- Blind Melon

"I may not have gone where I intended to go, but I think I have ended up where I intended to be." -Douglas Adams

Dreams: the menace of sobriety.

Vengence in my heart,
Death in my hand,
Blood and revenge are hammering in my head.
-William Shakespear, Titus Andronicus(Act 2 Scene 3)

The truth will set you free....right before they release the hunting dogs.

It is much easier to change your tune when your song ain't being played.

Seriously. It'll only dissapoint you. Like Santa. Or the Quarterback of the Varsity team.

What do you do when the only person who can make you stop crying is the person who made you cry?

Tell me, can you imagine, for a second
Doing anything just 'cuz you want to?

Fear death? Can't be worse than life.

if only if only
the woodpecker sighs
the bark on the trees
was as soft as the skies
as the wolf waits below
hungry and lonely
he cries to the moon
if only if only

Don't cry because it ended,
Smile because it happened.

Who am I to you? No one right? But that does not matter because to me I am someone.

"..When you're lovin' anybody, babe,
You're takin' a gamble on a little sorrow.
But then, who cares, baby?
For we may not be here tomorrow"

Truth is a torch but a tremendous one. That is why we hurry past it, shielding our eyes, indeed, in fear of getting burned ~Johann Wolfgang von Goethe

The only true wisdom is in knowing you know nothing. ~Socrates

"Life is blurred at times, a bit off center, like my photos, answers not always obvious, there if we seek them."

Another day, another dollar, another war
Another tower went up where the homeless had their homes

"Good art is not what it looks like, but what it does to us." - Roy Azdak

"I guess words are a motherfucker, they can be great...or they can teach hate." m. mathers

The best way to succeed is to look as though you are playing by someone else's rule, while quietly playing by your own. -Michael Konda

Don't let the bastards get you down. -Dad

Yes, love can kill; but remember this, hate can never save anyone.

What is beautiful is good, and who is good will soon be beautiful~ Sappho

"... and remember kids, just say NO to clipart..."

And the stains on boots say my life is going well...

"The dumber people think you are the more shocked they'll be when you kill 'em."

"Sometimes we laugh, sometimes we scream, no one said caring was easy."~Atreyu

I traveled to France and lived to tell the tale.

"...if the bike fits..."

"I'm willing to explore my humanity. Take off your clothes." -Seven of Nine

Life is like a big box of crazy stuff you find in the attic. Pick it up too fast, and the bottom'll fall out and everything will spill all over the place.

If you can't raise awareness, raise hell.

Something that seems so insignificant to others hurts me deep inside.
I've got little left to gain and no one in which to confide.
Anger, agony, pain, torment, together they converge,
The last of my humanity they so simply purge.

One, two.. Freddie's coming for you.
Three, four.. better lock the door.
Five, six.. grab your crusifex.
Seven, eight.. better stay up late.
Nine, ten.. you'll never sleep again.

"These wings, these wings were never meant to let me fly, they keep me teathered, like the good little thing I'm supposed to be, weights instead of freedom."

To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world.

You have the right to remain silent. Anything you say will be misquoted and used against you.

"I can't have a life...I have homework"

Be nice to me...I gave my soul today.

Ewww! 'Fresh' air? Do you know how many people have breathed that stuff?

The work will wait while you show the child the rainbow, but the rainbow won't wait while you do the work.
- Patricia Clafford

I'm not supposed to have imagination
I'm not supposed to have talent
Not supposed to do things differently.
Well too fucking bad.

"In this age, which believes that there is a short cut to everything, the greatest lesson to be learned is that the most difficult way is, in the long run, the easiest."

one taste and you will see
more is all you need
dedicated to
overkilling you

"I am not depressed......only permanently miserable."


Saturday, June 07, 2003


The heavens open up above you thus...
No one else can see the light;
No one else recognizes your authority,
We comply anyway, halfheartedly,
Hoping that in doing so we might
Avoid making hell open up beneath our feet and swallow us.

So instead of raining out our deluge of words,
We choose to go the way of Britain's skies,
Only every so often letting a few drops of tension go.
Really more disheartening it is in doing so,
Because though you meanwhile may feel immune to the tides,
Everyone would rather endure the skies turning black to see the blue afterwards.
circa the deviantART account slacksoft


Monday, June 02, 2003

It is sometimes pleasant even to act like a madman.

Until then we go on driving with nothing said.
I hurt myself inside, 'cause I can't hurt you, dad.

More than sad it makes you mad, to know somebody knows there's a lying in your silence...

Who shot the shot to make the blood clot?

Do not kill, do not rape, do not steal, these are principles which every man of every faith can embrace.

God gave me nothing...So I took everything.

We never cease to stand like curious children before the great mystery into which we are born - A. Einstein

Once, during prohibition, I was forced to live for days on nothing but food and water. - W. C. Fields

Terrible's in fashion.

Trust me, I have a pineapple.

"For as poets dream, do lovers kiss"

"That pigeon has no toes..." "Yeah, that'll happen sometimes."

Sometimes before you smile you've got to cry. You need a heart that's filled with music, if you use it you can fly.