yesterday I...
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shaved my legs with a blunt razor, and perhaps I would have let some blood fall from my veins if it wasn't so trendy and shallow now.
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left wet towels on the floor.
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dressed in baggy black clothes... to drown my figure,
to be a shapeless girl. if I can't be thin I will be shapeless.
being shapeless is better than being fat anyway.
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passed through the car park
it doesn't collect warmth anymore,
thats why I don't stay there.
there is no sunshine to soak up.
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held hands with someone:
who's love I do not deserve this easily.
because I'm cold and distant...
tightly closed
like the criss-crossed laces in those boots that I wear.
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smiled: artificially, yet convincingly.
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inhaled invisible pollution.
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endured annoying noises
and annoying people
(who told me to SHUT THE FUCK UP
because I proved them to be a HYPOCRITE)

[fuck them]

(which I unfortunately did, once)
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scrambled to catch up
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watched online video clips
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said goodbye in a predictable manner
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tried not to die.

by the deviantart user forbiddensnowflake